My neck hurts. Like life is just literally a pain in the neck.
Well, not life so much.
Facebook. I think Facebook is making my neck hurt.
My neck hurts so terrifically that I just noticed I was spelling it with a K.
What is wrong with me?
Wait. Maybe that’s right.
I would like to preface this by reminding you dear readers that I’m obviously a very poor speller and I have a very high tolerance for pain.
Until I don’t.
I birthed both of my babies without an epidural.
Partially because I wanted to be able to say I had done it.
Partially because I was afraid of the giant needle.
Partially (ok mostly) because I remember the insurance lady at the hospital telling us that it was an additional $700.
So let’s review. High tolerance for pain. Low tolerance for a $700 needle.
It’s also the reason I don’t like going to the doctor. Because I don’t want to pay for their years of study and experience. I much prefer to pretend that I went to medical school.
I come by this very naturally. My family and I have great confidence in our abilities to diagnose.
My sister has diagnosed me with Asthma, GIRD and a loss of effervesce.
Oh wait. That wasn’t an illness. That was my life.
So I broke down and went to the doctor. The minute I walked in, regret set in.
Do you know who goes to the doctor in January?
Sick people. Flu-contagious, sneezy, coughy, pukey, sick people.
And don’t get me started with their height and weight charts.
I tried not to panic, but as it became apparent that I was shrinking in my older age, I realized that my immune system was failing.
Did I mention that while having a high tolerance for pain, I can also be a raging hypochondriac.
I left there with the flu.
And a host of prescriptions.
For the record, I did not fill the pain meds. I am a closet drug-addict.
Meaning I’m not a drug-addict, but I could be. Let’s remember, I’ve been to medical school.
I know things.
I did fill the steroids.
Oh. Good. Gravy, y’all. Steroids are terrifically awesome.
Until they weren’t.
Until they made my face puffy.
Until the zipper in favorite pair of jeans split right in two.
My favorite jeans that cost more than the epidural I was too cheap to have.
So I did the smart thing.
I quit taking said steroids.
In the middle. Evidently you’re not supposed to do that.
So now I’m nauseous and I’m tired.
And my neck (with an N) still hurts.
The puffiness in my face has gone down. Which I realized is probably not going to lift the depression of Betsy who knows nothing about education becoming the secretary of education, but it is still happy news for me.
And my face.
Just not for my children. Or their future.
Furthermore, I have a large bump on the side of my face. It is not a pimple. It is not a bug bite of any kind.
It is a “you’re face is already puffy and your favorite jeans don’t fit and Donald Trump is the president, so let’s just add a giant growth to the side of your face to add insult to injury” kind of bump.
Just kidding about Donald Trump. I don’t write about politics.
Not kidding about Betsy.
Or my neck.
We have a new member at club fitness who also happens to be a talented Chiropractor. We will call her Dr. Kate.
Because that’s her name.
Evidently she finds it distracting to see me training with a giant pain patch on my neck so she has taken me under her wing and pampered me and loved me.
And she cares that my neck hurts.
She even put an afghan on my feet during treatments.
Because I was cold.
Which, since I’m already on a Alexander’s having a very bad, horrible, rotten no-good kind of day, theme, I should just tell you that I’m always cold.
Until I’m not.
Until my Mother, God rest her soul, wait—
She’s not dead. 😉
Until my Mother, God bless her heart, projected onto my sister and me the worst peri-menopausal symptoms in the history of the world. And I think it secretly brings her joy.
Well, just joy. She’s not so secret about it. Evidently she doesn’t think we gave her enough sympathy during the Big-M days.
Afghan. Cold. Yes.
I’m always cold.
Until I’m not. Until I’m a raving lunatic, opening windows, shedding well beyond what would be considered an appropriate level of clothes—
Yes, until I’m not.
So. I was going to wrap this up all nice and everything.
That’s my thing, right? But I got nothin’.
Maybe I should at least end with the acknowledgment that these are all something I like to call 1st-world problems.
Meaning I’m fully aware that there are bigger issues right now than my jeans with a busted zipper.
Bigger as in the giant bump on my face that is not a pimple.
Bigger as in hard.
Come, Lord Jesus, hard.
I don’t think the Lord is asking me to go out and change the world today which is good because I’m really tired.
Today I’m gonna pray for those of us who are suffering. For those of us who could not imagine the luxury of an entire afternoon to just sit around and write about the big ‘ol pain in their neck.
To sit around and look for pokey objects that might help rid herself of weird bumps.
To sit around with a heating pad and a bag of ice. Not for therapy but just for the massive swings between cold and hot.
It’s not in me today to change the world or even write something eloquently about wanting to change the world. Instead, I’ll remember what Ann Voskamp says.
Thanksgiving precedes the miracle.
And so today I give thanks.
And wait for miracles.
And if y’all want to pray for my neck, well that’d be OK too.